I was really hurt and felt really sad.
Just the other day, I met 2 friends who recently hooked up and got together. I used to be really good friends with the guy and the girl. I know her and she is a really nice girl. We used to talk ,this girl and I. We are not exactly really close but we used to talk smile and at least say hi. So when I heard that they both got together..I was really happy for them and seriously thought they were meant to be together. They are gorgeous together.They even have the couple
But twice now~ I met them. He would look at me and say hi and rush off and she wouldnt even want to talk to me anymore. Everytime I see them..they would just stop talking or holding hands and she would just run off and he will have the ” I just saw a ghost” look. It was as if they were saying.. ” Why do we have to see her?”
I really do not understand~Did I do something or said something I should not have? I only want to be friendly. I want to be nice to you. Why am i not allowed to? I am even afraid to send birthday messages now.
Am I scary or mean or maybe even bitchy..that it seems like all my friend’s girlfriends really do not like me..Am I not even worth it to be introduced to? Is our friendship really that worthless to you?
I guess this constant reoccurring are constant reminder of my promise that I will try my very best to not forsake my friends because of a guy….
Sad but all my friends walk out on me. Ok most of my friends walk out on me. Sad to say that I am rather used to it now. I accepted the fact that in life God send us people who will leave footprints in our life. When the time is up, they will start to leave and new friends would enter our life.
The thing with me is.I still feel hurt when they walk out on me even though its the hundredth time. And the thing is…when you walk out on me, you can’t just waltzed back in. We can no longer be friends…just acquaintance maybe. Maybe we used to have dinner together…but if they once walked out on me..how can we even have coffee anymore..
Forgive me if you think I’m shallow but its called protection mechanism.
P.s If Kienseng or Waywen’s girlfriend hate me.. I would really not know what to do. One is practically my brother and the other is my closest friend ever…I hope their girlfriends won’t hate me.
on the other hand..Im glad Diana and I are really good together.. Despite the fact she knows I see her bf..oops..husband 
all the time since we are classmates
