09.30.08
Dizziness
and Suddenly my lungs hurt and breathing became difficult but I got along the whole day just fine.. and suddenly the room was spinning and I could not even bear to open my eyes anymore…
What happen? I do not know..
I went on each day with thoughts and promises that tomorrow will be a better day. Promises that everything would work out sooner or later and promises that all would go my way if I would just be patient and positive.
3 weeks down the road and the sun shines but still very weak beneath the clouds. The rays are shy but I know just a little more and it will shine brightly but right now…I really cannot see the sun..
and I am starting to wonder if what they say are true……………
I don’t know is the only answer I can give now…
because I think I lost myself in the path of self-discovery
~AnN~
09.29.08
My date
A fun day out with Ms. Amy Kor
Ms Amy Kor posing by the bus stop
We decided to go shopping in EuroMall…her looking for leather jacket and me….winter jacket as my Pink one spoil already:( So…anyway….
We took 105 pictures on this day…like seriously crazy… though not surprising because..we can camwhore while waiting for the bus…..
Amy & I
Or in the train…eventhough the 20 ++ people in the same cabin were looking at us but do we care :p Haha~ nope….we are pretty thick skin you know 
in the metro
We modeled some super hideous jacket...mind you it is not cheap at all
and we went for a drink 
knowing us..I think you can probably guess what we did next
I bought....
She bought..
yeah…you guess it…we camwhore like nobodies business
The Queen & Princess of camwhore
Amy is the queen of all cam whore and I am the princess
What to order??
I think my tiramisu taste nicer :p haha~jk jk
and we camwhore some more
Amy: not fair....cam whore without me
and then...i was bored already that is why she is the queen and I am only the princess
then there was this waitress who kept staring at us…..making it so awkward…maybe she was hoping we asked her to join us haha~
I love shopping
She loves shopping too
and then….we went for dinner in Sinbad and Amy said…Let’s camwhore
after 5-6 failed pictures…I finally took one which is right ;P
Amy: ANN!!! can you not take a picture without shaking ??!?!??!?
our dinner
Her Borsch… My salad and our Caesar pizza…though it looks not very appetizing…It is actually very delicious
I love this picture…we look so happy after shopping don’t we…!! after of course the explanation of the bill
I had alot of fun that day…though tiring and definitely bought more than what I wanted to buy and it really took me away from the fast-track stress lane…I looked tired don’t I
anyway…can’t possibly put all pictures here….will post in Facebook and my flickr account too…For my flickr do click on the side panel of my blog…
back to the books
muaks..xoxoxo
~AnN~
09.27.08
My biggest regret
I was tagged by a friend to list top 10 of my biggest regrets…haha
I scratched my head and think….
and then I think again….
and again…
I don’t thinK i regretted anything
and then I thought of one 
Yay!!! big smiles…haha
- I regretted that I did that one thing that gave me the very little 5 seconds of bliss in the midst of 23 hours 59 mins and 55 seconds of heart ache.
- I regretted that I still have not learn my mistake and I am still in the midst of that first regret…when will It stop and I can finally stop regretting….
there 2 regrets dy…the other 8 I have to think some more…but I think this 2 regrets can overtake 100 regrets in my life already.
Don’t worry..things will get better :)
The week went by, just like that. It was hard to say whether it was quick or was it at snail’s pace. Time flew by because time was what I needed but definitely not in my hands. However, it was slow because every day I wake up hoping its Friday
Basically I am tired, sleepy, energy-less, lots more work to do…I need a holiday already… and I cannot afford to skip classes….
Medicine is the line I choose and working hard is the only thing I can do as giving up is not in my list of options….Now, after listening to all my rages…would you still go for it?? :p
anyway 100+ Malaysians just landed in Moscow venturing into 1st year
took this 3 pictures yesterday when i was definitely 100% emotionally upset and had to leave the rest of the world to go shopping….
I think it was the beautiful sky that cheer me up or the beautiful strangers around me who gave a helping hand and my friends who encouraged me Thank God for the beautiful things that allowed me to put down what was burdening me
09.24.08
Gambate !!
First time I learn that even paying money is so difficult and complicated stupid mess-up system 
I feel really tired, sleepy and still have alot of work to do ….When I came back just now, I really wanted to just sleep haha~
but now….I am just smiling with sudden renewed energy Bless those simple words that can just lift up your soul…
Gambate Ann!! 1 down, 3 more to go
~AnN~
09.23.08
Frustrated
TO date uni had already commenced for 3 weeks..Time really flew by, it really seemed as though i was here for 1 week only. Timetables are packed, workload are crazy much and exams are starting to pile up. Seriously, blogging is not something I should actually be doing now…..but I really cannot help it… For days, my beautiful Vaio was kept in the nice red bag in my bookshelf so as not to get distracted. Anatomy is really driving me crazy. Yes, memorizing bones, It took me every day for 3 weeks and to date I still do not have it on my fingertips. Questions are not only name of bones itself, that would definitely be easy and easy is a word none existence in any of my classes.That is good though, it trains me for the better , the stronger and the tougher future, the more challenging it is the better actually then I would improve….right haha~ implementing the positive thoughts in my head HowevEr, it sucks when you think about it. I am having difficulty with bones, and the next chapter I have to memorize 600 muscles….Yeah, I THINK I AM SCREWED.
BUT….positive thoughts….positive thoughts…positive thoughts..haha~
anyway.
My prayers go out to the poor family of victims and the 8 students who were shot in Helsinki, Finland. Again, stuff like that happen…I honestly can never imagine myself in that situation whether a friend of the victim or the victims themselves. It doesn’t exactly sound impossible for a crazy madmen with a gun stomping into my university and start shooting around ;P haha.. ok…I am too stressed for my own good. But yes… My prayers go out entirely to them tonight
and then I was emo… because I thought of my past.. I do not do that often but my memories went back thinking of all the friends that came into my life starting from my primary school good friend who passed away in Standard 2. It was horrible that day when It came into my mind because my flashback was so clear with every word she said, everything thing we did together, from the dolls we play, from the frustration she poured out on me, to the taste of the seaweed soup which i could still taste with the tip of my tongue. I was just sitting there on the verge of my bed thinking of that night I received the unfortunate call. The feelings in me was still so strong. I could almost hear the storms from that night and like that night I was sitting clutching my pillow tight. Just like before.
I would love to continue my post on friends i have…u know..maybe I will do that because I have nothing better to do. I will so..wait up for those post..especially if YOU ARE…one of those people
k…back to my studying dy…
toodles
What girls do when they are bored.... bt this pix is so damn weird LOL
~AnN~
09.21.08
Buka Puasa
After anatomy on Friday, I rushed to Moslanka to pay my hostel fees. Actually I really kind of expected that I would not make it in time but I thought of giving it a shot. As I stepped out of the elevator, they all shooed us back home already…Sigh!! did not get to pay fees and stuck in the traffic for 1 hour for an actually 15 mins ride.
Honestly, I was actually planning to study my anatomy that night but that definitely did not work out when Cabriz came to my room to practically dragged me out by my hair to Buka Puasa with him and Najib in Ikea….
SO…being the weak one…I went along…
Najib looks happy doesn't he
Cabz turns his back on me
The amount of food Cabz ate....seriously...and he wiped it all clean
Najib's flat chicken..seriously flat
mine all mine.....actually it was alright only...not as nice as I expected it to be
MiRrOr ImAgE
I Need to study ….. humerus..ulna…claviculus…scapula…please enter my head…the problem Is i keep forgeting. or keep getting distracted or everytime i look at it
I…………….
erm…Weird how my eye lashes actually looked nice in this picture
hahaha
09.18.08
Never again…
Someone said something very sweet and beautiful to me
and eventhough the feelings are mutual
and even though the story ended
The line kept replaying over and over again
Never again will I say I have never been in love
Never again will I say I was never loved.
~AnN~
09.17.08
my gosh…such a difficult tag
1. What is the relationship of you and him?
- Friends and “spill-it-all-out” buddy went to NS together and we were both Exchange students. He went to Brazil and I went to Canada. He is someone I can spill all my frustrations and problems to and the person who accompany me on9 when I am bored studying :p
2. Your 5 impressions towards him?
~ love politics, probably will end up being a politician
~ Just someone you can entrust your deepest secret :p
~very nice person and actually kinda shy :p
~talkative like me…all exchange students are talkative
~ gives good impression
3. The most memorable things he has done for you.
~ er… haha..gotta think:P well….I dunno…way wen…have you done any memorable things for me? I do not think so…
4. The most memorable things he have said to you?
~ He said he will miss me when I leave Malaysia:P haha very seldom my friends said that :p and oh,,he remember my javachip
5. If he becomes your lover, you will…
~haha~ well..I do know most of his secrets but definitely know too much information ady so kind off impossible
6. If he becomes your enemy, you will...
~ai….we are both super nice people would not look for enemies…but if really..then make sure he is close to me so…I can monitor his every moves so he would not end up slaughtering me
7. If he becomes your lover, he has to improve on…
- …actually he is great the way he is
8. If he becomes your enemy, the reason is…
- he tells me that he does not ever want to meet me and talk to me ever again… and why would he do that
9. The most desirable thing to do on him is?
- Give him that push he always needed…need to overcome his shyness…
10. The overall impression of her is…
- someone who have a strong standing but nice person
11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
- hopefully they feel I am nice…but yeah I am known for being impulsive, gullible, happy-go-lucky, nutcase, stubborn
12. The character you like of yourself is?
- determination, soft-hearted
13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
- Temper, temper and gullible
14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
- is… a graduated paediatrician who is saving life of millions of children all over the world… i cannot wait to graduate
15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
- Thank you for caring and I love you all too:P
16. 10 friends to tag
1.Amy KSY
2. Michelle Chan
3. Alex
4. Edric Yip
5. Wee kee
6. Billy
7. Chris
8. Adrienne
9. Way wen…am I allow to tag you back?
10. Viviene
17. Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
- MC~her ever sweet boyfriend…Jason
18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
- Alex….haha…guy or girl?
19. If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?
- Chris & Vivien haha..maybe maybe :p…who knows
20. How about no. 5 and no. 8?
- Wee Kee and my cousin hahaha….I would kinda like to see that :p
21. What is no. 1 studying about?
- Amy~4th year medical
22. Is no. 4 single?
- Edric Yip~Yeah he is…but do not think it is for long :p
23. Say something about no. 6
- Billy..fantastic talented musician and very good in dressing up
when I started doing this tag…I really regretted already…it is so difficult … back to lecture notes
~AnN~
