07.31.08
in LOVE with the oldies
Close your eyes and I’ll kiss you
Tomorrow I’ll miss you
Remember I’ll always be true
And then while I’m away
I’ll write home every day
And I’ll send all my loving to you
I’ll pretend that I’m kissing
The lips I am missing
And hope that my dreams will come true
And then while I’m away
I’ll write home every day
And I’ll send all my loving to you
All my loving, I will send to you
All my loving, darling I’ll be true
Close your eyes and I’ll kiss you
Tomorrow I’ll miss you
Remember I’ll always be true
And then while I’m away
I’ll write home every day
And I’ll send all my loving to you
All my loving, I will send to you
All my loving, darling I’ll be true
All my loving, All my loving
Woo, all my loving, I will send to you
Recorded by the Beatles…
alil old but I am in love with alot of oldies…and this is just one of my crazy favourites…reminds me of a sweet summer romance…of bell bottom skirts, waving goodbye to the absolutely cute navy boyfriend as his ship departs from the port….
damn…sudden urge to watch grease again
ann have too much freetime with nothing to do and burning in the freaking Malaysian heat and living among inconsiderate Kajang citizens…
07.29.08
Serious Randomness:P
Dreams worth waiting for…
Have you ever had such a sweet dream that you wish morning never came? You blame your alarm clock for shaking you back into reality.
Have you ever woken from a dream so sweet you wished it was real? and then you shut your eyes tight snuggle back in your comforter hoping the dream continue…
or you know wished the dream was some kind of premonition for the future..and you kind of convinced yourself it might come true..
I did..I had such a sweet dream last night that i dreaded to go to work 
I dreaded to wake up. but then I gathered myself together because I know the fine line between dreams and reality, they do not mix and are in different worlds…
You can keep chasing the sweetest dreams but then it does not mean it will stop allowing you to embrace it. I guess it is really up to you to either continue chasing it or if you are able to drop it then it might be good.
Choices
I thought I had a choice but then it was not a choice at all. I thought if I go ahead with the other, my longing would evaporate. But I guess it was not a choice at all….the choices were not even there….It was not even before my eyes eventhough I hope that it might help. But what if I cannot take it anymore and force myself into the other route….What would happen then?
Is it wrong?
On the sidenote…i watched this movie and directly quoting a line, the male character said, that it is wrong to fight your own problems without telling other people about it. It is better to fight problems as a group, with a group of friends or with family and not yourself because you might not be able to handle it”
Is it true? I always prefer to fight problems myself, if possible I do not talk bout my problems or things that despair me to others because I find that it bothers people around me and only make them upset when they know I am either unhealthy or facing a dillema.Is it not better that everyone is happy and no one is worry for me…
on the other hand…I do not like my friends and people around me to keep problems to themself, I would gladly help them go through any problems and would want to give them all my support to go through difficulties. If they only let me, I would have helped to the max….
I know it seemed unfair that I keep everything to myself and yet I hope people open up to me… Is it wrong to not let people be worried for me? and me to care for the others??
Wanting something…
I got a VAIO laptop and it is seriously pissing me off… I love VAIO for as long as I remembered and was so happy when I got it. but for weeks it had been giving me problems… I feel so pissed off now and really a slight regret that I got it….I miss my TOSHIBA already eventho it is alot slower…lower memory….and it cannot really close…
Deep in tot…
My friends said once that once i get tired or when it is getting late at night, I go very deep whether it is an issue bothering me or emotions. So yeah…this is the exact situation
Problems spilling…
I tend to spill my problems to strangers or to people I hardly meet and talk to. I tend to tell my UK friend whom I probably speak once a year to about my problems then friends I spend so much time with…Isn’t that like weird??I guess it is because they do not really know me and I am not as important to them therefore, they would not be worried for me but be a borrowed ear to help me loosen up and listen to my ranting in which they would forget the moment we say bye…
Unexpected knowledge…
I thought I knew and understood a person for years and all of a sudden within 1 day I realised i do not really know the person at all….I thought I understoof the situation perfectly well but then when I turned around, I had it all wrong… THings that I thought I knew were not right..Unexpected surprises will keep popping up giving you the shock out of your life that your eyeballs can even pop out.. I wonder seriously what Can i believe in this world now.what is right, what is wrong, what can be trusted, what is unreliable…it all seemed unclear now…
Pain…
is the unbearable feeling and it is worse if you cannot heal it…
I think I have enough excitement for one lifetime….I would really want a little simplicity in my life…I usually choose the route less taken, the route less walked on but for once can I walk on a path flatten by the many footprints before mine. I paint my nails from black to bright fluorescent colours, I colour my hair from red to blonde, copper to pink, blue to purple..but for once I want natural colour nails and my jet-black hair…
I do not want anymore surprises, any more heartaches, any more traps….I only want to walk down the street smilling, with my freshly washed hair blown with the breeze. I want to close my eyes and walk down the street and know I will be safe, instead of always taking chances and playing the luck game…It is too difficult…
Can I have it easy for once? Just once…Show me what is easy because I have never seen how easy works….
p.s Im not complaining…I am a very lucky girl blessed with the most unbelievable things…i am just ranting haha~
07.28.08
Green Apple Mint & Dark Knight
Met up with my NS buddy and my Fellow exchange buddy….
A lil intro here…I met WAY WEN in National Service and he was also a Rotary exchange student to Brazil and me to Canada. We kept in touch and remain strong with each other’s support through onlining~wonders of the internet. you put the both of us in the same room and we would be ranting on about our other “home” and it would be difficult to stop us. haha ~ He did so many crazy stuff including fishing piranhas in the Amazon river and bbq-ing them, he went crocodile hunting and watched a cow give birth…so many stuff in which i would love love love to do.After so many many years, we still can chat for so many hours and Way Wen remembered the times in Russia when i kept complaining to him online craving for JAVACHIP. He immediately suggested Starbucks after our lunch. Thanks buddy for times you listen to me rant when i can no longer keep the pressure to myself anymore….thanks for being patient to me complaining thanks for listening…btw…he thinks he looks kiddy in the pix…no rite..he is just happy to receive souvenirs i brought for him from russia 
Beaming proudly
His mango passionfruit and a lil pomegranate thingy and my Javachip *HeArTs*
and then i met up with my schoolmates:) it has been awhile since we last met. We watched Dark Knight in Gardens. RM 20 front row seats. It wasn’t that bad.Christan Bale and his Lamborghini is like so damn cool… I so do not mind to watch it again…eventhough Sze Ping and I were like squeling in our seats..really nice to have met you 3 again….the ever brilliant head prefect AQTAR probably smartest in Edinburg now… Sze Ping ever so pretty and cheerful girl and the fun outgoing Xian SHi….
More pix up at
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lets end this post with….
my colourful new pedicure
listening to: I kissed a girl~Katie Perry
Ann wants to: go on a holiday on an island before dying next semester
: go clubbing…go dancing….
07.26.08
I wanna….
I wanna…… read a good book…just lie there with a cup of coffee and a comfy couch
I wanna……walk in the rain, drench wet breathing in the serene smell
I wanna……waste a whole day or maybe a week and not give a damn about later,tomorrow, the future the world.
I wanna……spend one day walking away from the crowd and just one day with myself
I wanna……dance the night away
I wanna……laugh until I cry
I wanna…..watch a sad love story
I wanna…..Wear high heels and not get blisters
I wanna…..dressed real pretty and have heads turn :p
I wanna……sit among the clouds and let the soft cotton clouds protect me and the gentle breeze hug me
I wanna…..Dye my hair blond and paint my nails red
I wanna……be pampered and love
I wanna……be immune to pain and heartaches
I wanna……turn deaf to words that cut me
I wanna…..
I wanna….
I just wanna………….
07.21.08
I do not understand….
I was walking past Chanel in KLCC and there was this little boy dressed all in white crying looking for his mummy. Everyone were like lets go but i just stood fixed looking at the little boy. Everyone walked pass taking no noticed at him as he ran all over the place and wiping his tears with the back of his hand. there were 5 guys there promoting a Chloe perfume but they took no noticed at the boy as he ran around passing them at least 4 times. How could they I do not understand? Everyone were already so much ahead of me and stopped by the escalator when they realised i was not by their side. so many people walked pass the boy. but why didnt anyone stop to help him???
I couldn’t leave him. my heart felt so heavy when I heard his loud sobs…I was practically glued to the spot unaware of what I should do. Everyone was waiting for me up front and this boy was crying and no one was paying any attention to him. Everyone were already yelling, ” Ann lets go!!”
i couldn’t do it. my heart was so heavy and it actually hurt to see the boy cry. i just walked up to him and spoke to him really softly and gently first in english and then in chinese just in case. He looked at me with the really sad eyes but still sobbing.after a while he settled down a little to soft sobs but still not talkign to me. FInally, seeing me with the boy. a few people decided to walk up . like why not do that tomorrow right. Like seriously!!!
I even asked him for his mother’s number and took my phone out ready to dial, he refused to tell me instead continue sobbing eventhough a little softer now. I felt like hugging him and wipe his tears telling him he will be alright but I was afraid i would frightened him.
the security guard saw the crowd and came over. By that time, the perfume promoters were already among the crowd( like seriously they were blind the first few minutes the boy ran around them crying) they told the guard what happened and the guard said he would take the boy down to information counter.
How is it posible to take your child out shopping and forget you actually brought them? Is that even possible? i really seriously do not understand. Not a single bit at all. And how…HOW can you watched a crying child running frantically? How can you stand there looking at him as if it was such entertainment? some people were even smirking making jokes and laughing about irresponsible parents! How can they totally ignore a crying child and go on doing what they were doing and as if the little boy did not exist at all? how can you walk away as if nothing happened when something like this happend right before your eyes? How can you not do anything….
what is going on in this world? what happened to the kindness….the helpfulness? What happened to the heart, the conscience God bestowed to humans?
07.01.08
Luxurious bliss & Melinda Looi
Back home i get a different kind of luxury… a different kind of bliss…haha ~
First thing of course my parents would drag me to the chinese physician who said that my health is horendously bad and there is a possibilityof not being able to give birth if i do not take care(like seriously!!!)so currently I have to drink this DISGUSTINGLY BITTER GROSS BLACK herb medicine twice a day and for 5 whole days and after that I have to go back to him…and I am currently ban from anything and everything cold …. that is when I am with my parents:P
Bliss comes in many ways and one of them is FOOD!!!!!!!!!
I love DIM SUM you see…haha and i miss it alot..that was the first meal i had in Malaysia when I landed… DIm Sum brunch on sunday in Grand Meridien.. :p yummy
Pigging on fresh oysters and marshmallows chocolate fondues and fruit truffles…can it get any better than this
whats more…SHOPPING…something I refrain myself from doing for the one year in Russia…I bought so many nice clothes…including a dress and pair of designer jeans from Melinda Looi( i never thought I had that chance:p)… and other dresses, jeans blouse and BEAUTIFUL SHOES …. I got a good deal…in fact a freaking good deal… I love malaysian sales you get 70% if you ae careful even so…i dearly love my daddy for sponsoring haha ~
so far….hectic~ness comes in me trying to get use to jetlag and gathering stuff… :p other than that…everything is moving just fine
the one week home is going well…accompanying my sis to the philharmonic orchestra on Sunday…for her music project..not that i mind..i love it anyway:p
anyway…how are you guys?
signing out with love
xoxoxo
toodles:D
