01.30.08
Defination of L-O-V-E
I was chatting with a friend today and I just love how he describe what love is to me..haha
he said that
Love is when she forgets to do the clothes,
Love is when you use the toothpaste from the middle
Love is when you forget to flush the toilet
all that takes love
that is such a great description of love…you do understand what it means rite?? haha~~
What if tomorrow is just too late?
If you were to die tomorrow, are you ready? Are you afraid of it or are you able to walk away with a smile saying you have live enough? We are always at a constant rush, when will we ever have this smile on our faces saying we have live enough. However, like a normal human being…there is never enough, there is never ever enough time, there is never satisfaction, never the perfect happy-ending.
But let’s just say…
If I am to die tomorrow, what will happen? Will I be missed? Will memories of me remain intact in people’s mind or much better people’s heart? Will everyone cry or will they laugh? Will they remember me or will I just fade along like seeds in the wind? Will I be like a piece of bittersweet chocolate melting in their mouth~bitter at first and sweetness lingering later? or will I be what they say a good riddance?
I never wanted to live in regret… I never want to do something I have never done and then regretted later. I never want to die tomorrow and realised like “damn I shouldn’t have been such a coward yesterday..should have just done it?” I never hesitated in doing anything usually because I mean who knows …I might be gone tomorrow and I will never have a chance again.I want to always be ready…in case I do die..but like I can tell you now that it is alright if I die now..but will I be telling the truth…I do not even know because death is not in front of me right now..
I got out of bed today feeling like…what if…What if I die today, will I regret? I have live my life to the maximum I believe…haha I have alot of things I have never done before..But there are plenty that I have encountered and definately many things that many people have never done before.
When I do stupid stupid stuff, I just kept telling myself…that at least If i were to die tomorrow..I did something crazy. It is when I live my life at the edge of the cliff, I tell myself that it is alright cause I might just be dead tomorrow.
So…in case I really do die tomorrow…I really want all my friends and everyone I meet to know that I do not hate you… in fact I love all of you and I am very very glad to have met you cause my life became much more meaningful..I have never hated you all probably a little dislike is possible haha..that is normal right..but I do not hate you and if you know me then you should know I forget everything really quickly..haha…
Do not live your life with regrets…Do not live your life thinking you have plenty of time left…If you want to go polar-bear dipping, go ahead! If you really like him/her, go tell them…maybe they feel the same way..and even if they don’t it is alright because u will not wake up each morning thinking wat if i told him/her? If you want to know what coachkraches taste like go ahead..haha take a bite..but I wouldn’t..haha..
ThInK bOuT iT…
what if…tomorrow is too late?…what would you do today?
I want to leave footprints in your hearts like how you left them in me…I want to keep smilling just so that I will be remembered as that crazy girl who smiles and laugh all the time that her eyes glows and she is never sad….
Reading: Chemistry periodic table in russian.
Listening : Pink~ Who Knew?
01.27.08
Nothing but pictures once again
SkAtInG iN tHe WiNtEr WoNdErLaNd!
They say when you make a wish here they come true. A wish for eternal love. Eternally together…the eternal walk hand-in-hand through hardship and joy
This is the 5th picture i took with the eternal flame in winter…i need pictures for spring
Picture of the day….us in Kremlin *WINKS*
Perfect life
Oh…this is life…now why would any animal want to live in the wild where you have to run around in muddy fields instead of drinking this creamy yummy milk.
a little higher…yeah…ah..thats comfortable…yeah a little more..hmm..you got the itch
This is heaven…perfect heaven…get to snuggle and pat to bed!
Yawn….and soft soft bed
nitey nite peeps!
01.24.08
Wishing for marshmallows in my hot chocolate
It is now 2 minutes to 6 am. I am freshly showered, smelled like grapefruit from my bodywash and of melon and mango from my lotion. My comforter comfortably stayed-put around me while my notebook lied warmly on my lap. One hand cluthing my hot chocolate and right now I am wishing for some marshmallows or a chocolate bar or actually Lays Original flavour.I have been tossing and turning since 4am and at 5 I finally decided to show the white flag and retrieved from the sleeping war.
Is it normal or insanely paranoid that I am still shaken from something that happened yesterday? I have no idea how at such a situation I could have remained so freakishly calm while the other dude was practically shivering his braces off. Only when I walked away and sat in that silent bus that I actually started feeling the effect. I was scared when it happened, so terribly frightened. So many possibilities could happen to me. I heard stories, true stories of people in my situation…I could have been dead or very much alive but damaged or even ended up in a place I hope never to step into. It was practically what you dream in nightmares especially when you are in a foreign land. The worst thing in the world and the one situation which I kept myself safe and make sure it does not happened. And yesterday it happened and the fact how I am the only one expected to handle the situation was pretty crappy. At that moment, I totally want to blurt out “I am a girl, only a girl and forget about all the shit I preached about GIRL POWER”.So, if you asked me now how I did it I do not know. If you asked me now….how I stayed calm and not burst out crying or panicking..I have no idea. I totally do not know how I handled it especially when I only understand only half of everything the bastard said.But I guess it is all over now and part of my many crazy memories and the most important thing is that we are all safe back in our rooms, me watching Grey’s anatomy and they playing counter strike.
Should I once again smile and walk out to the world saying that “eventhough difficult I am glad it happened because I learn something and I am older and wiser now and a better person”?… but I seriously cannot say that cause I am not glad at all that it happened…and this once I am going to say this is a total Fucked up situation and I do not ever want to be in it again..I do not usually cursed but this is fucking fucked up..and please please God don’t let it happened to me again.
I am just in a pretty crappy state right now and pretty shaken up…I even had nightmares last night.
Is it normal or am I insanely paranoid?
p.s: I do not even know what to categorize this in..haha
01.22.08
16 days of holiday..YAHOO!!
Places I want to go to in Moscow:
1. Red square/Kremlin
I visited it before a couple of times but it was usually in a hurry..I want to really really see the place..Visit the Museum.. Walk into Lenin’s tomb and see the emblamed body of Lenin before the burial and all that’s left there is an empty casket, of course my ever ever favourite St. Basillica’s Cathedral (soo ann’s chocolate building)
2. The Cathedral of Christ the Savior
the main orthodox church in Moscow
Because i simply loves old old european streets..I find them romantic and relaxing and absolutely beautiful
4. Izmaislovsky Park
they say there are all kinds of food there..including chinese..yeah yeah lets go “tong yuen” hunting
5. Dinasaur museum
apparently there is one near my hostel…I so wanna go!!
6. Novodechy Monastery
Because it is one of UNESCO WORLD HERITAGE and because it looks absolutely gorgeous
7. A art museum…either Pushkin art gallery or Tretyakov art gallery
I know you probably think its boring but I always wanted to go to a art gallery
8. Ostankino Palace
a freaking freaking beautiful palace built by a count in 1798
9.Volkov – Yusupov Chambers
Because apparently it is one of those stone castles like a fairy tale one and also because Ivan the terrible and a very young young Alexander Pushkin(russian faster poet) live there once and because I cannot seemed to find any pictures online and also because it is built in the 16th century and because I dream of fairytales..haha
(sounds like i want to visit this place the most!! haha)
10. Chekhov Home/Museum
Because..I studied Chekhov for my english paper in Canada…so i really want to see why is he so depressed which made me depressed reading his book
You think I can do all that in 2 weeks time and still fit in some studying..haha.yeah I can
There are actually many many many more places I want to go to but no hurry…i have a freaking 7 years here to visit the quiet russian countryside, the palaces…the very looking-forward-to-visit-Tchaikovsky’s home…the capitals of europe, the sweet countryside…especially Tuscany..and all all all those places I always want to go to
But this year..Im staying put and venturing out nearby with the very very handy metros and busses and trams(I have not taken a tram yet fyi) and I am so wishing for my camera now…
now now now…I need to go scout for travel BUDDIES…anyone interested?? I am a very very very good companion..haha *wink**wink*
01.21.08
Welcome one Welcome all
Hello…again..
Ok..now let’s just say you do not know me and Let’s just say you just met me and Let’s just say this is your first time reading my blog page..well..it is a new page..
SO. I am Soo Ann or you can call me Ann and I definately really really dislike it when you call me Soo…so please dont! My current location is Moscow, Russia which I dare say is ABSOLUTELY A BEAUTY…I am currently a pre-medical student in Russian State Medical University or more commonly known here as ΡΓΜΥ living in a hostel which is like an empty home and challenges me to go domestic shopping which is quite nice actually..haha..except that I have to learn to buy a fridge that is practical and affordable instead of “I like the stainless steel look and it is freaking gorgeous” or a microwave that is again practical instead of how lovely it look like..haha I guess I am just not cut out to be a housewife
SO yes…I have been changing blogs every year and yes I have always say that it will be the last time i change but hey..I guess you cannot get me to settle in a place for too long…haha..
But I just really like this wordpress (at the moment)and I am keeping the name cause i like it..as I have mentioned before Heureux Pour Toujours means happy forever in french which is something i remind myself to do all the time..Dont you like the picture..on the header..I know its just feets(i found it on flicker by the way)..but can you guess whats going on when you see that picture..haha if you ask about the tagline..I guess its like something I always say..
Why hope? With hope it means that you have hope…so in any situation..if you have hope therefore you have a chance
Why faith? Faith is like believing…you have faith in yourself and automatically you are able to achieve what you want.
Why love? With love, it means there are compassion in the world. With compassion there are nice people out there. With nice people, no one is cranky. When there are no bitches and bastards and no arsehole and all the wat-cha-ma-call-it..there are no fights,quarrels,no hatred, no jeolousy,and no wars even
Why dreams? Dreams are the reason I fight through each day, they are the drive to my life, the reason I am working so hard…its the dreams in me that pushes me to pass my limit and to achieve it in the end and my dreams will one day come true..haha I just know it
Why smiles? because when you smile people smile. When people smile the world smiles.When the world smiles isn’t everything more beautiful..haha
Why laughter? because its stress-relieving, because it is a good thing to do , because it is something I always do..haha
So..er..Im still pretty shitty with the computer so..er..give me more time in improving my blogpage..therefore
just bear with me..haha..Patience is virtue..(I always ask people to be patient with me and yet that is something I do not have..haha)
